It has been a month now since I've had my surgery and wow what an experience it was! I mean that both in an exciting, thirilling way and a not so good moment. Your probably thinking how can a surgery possibly be thrilling, well I guess emotions can bring that out. I recall so much feelings, but I think the one feeling that I recall the most is the feeling of lonliness. I remember waiting in the prep room all alone the day of the surgery, I remember the day before when I had to get a blood transfusion and no one was there as the nurses kept poking me over and over with needles because they couldn't find a vein and had to end up putting a six foot long needle in me. I remember waking up after the surgery to pain that was unthinkable, and I remember trying to walk afterwards and not being able to due to the pain that was beyond belief. I was alone through all of this and not one person was there for me. But lying there that day on the surgery table in a cold, cold room, I prayed for comfort, I prayed for strength, I prayed that God would keep me in His hands. I prayed until I couldn't pray anymore because the anesthesia took over, I prayed my heart out. And I realized that day, that God was there, that He's always been there today and everyday. I'm not writing this to get your pity, because I can tell you now that I do not like being pitied because of my health issues. No I'm writing this so you too can realize that God has been and will always be there for you and me. And that's the thrill of it all! Knowing that our Saviour is there for us in good times and bad times despite all the times we've sinned and come short of His glory. God is so good! And I hope to spend the rest of my life serving Him. The rest of the week had ended up being a good week, I ended up having visitors everyday after those first few lonely days. It didn't matter though because I had realized that God was all I needed and I believe that I grew closer to Him. I think that our storms sometimes are a way for us to get closer to Him. To allow us to grow a relationship with Him.
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Charmaine accepted Christ at the age of 19, and now attends Golden State Baptist College in Santa Clara, CA. Where she is pursuing her Associate’s Degree in General Education. Archives
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